When I receive love whom do I betray?

This question occurred to me while listening to someone talk about a loved one’s anguish. Then, I realized this is a question for me to ask myself, which is why it resonates so deeply.

What ancestral codes do I violate by allowing myself to be loved, by receiving it? 

Hearing, “No one will ever love you!!!” as a child internalized with all the millennial charge of ancestral grief and confusion.